The Distracted Life of Serena

I seem to be finally coming off whatever has had me coughing for the past 7 weeks. Yay.

Finals are 2 weeks away.

Vacation is the week after that, and Colorado isn't looking good, due to the Bronchitis bills.

It's hard to concentrate anywhere anymore.

It's really bad when your frustration comes out as "I know im pissy bc of the time of the month but holy fucking mother of satan's incestuous counsin's meth addicted cocaine snorting hermaphrodite baby..."

And then.... I just gave up.

Tonight, Im just going to say fuck it.

I can't do ANYTHING.

Argh.

About a month ago, John got me sick :(

It turned into bronchitis. :(

I was on antibiotics and cough syrup with codeine in it for about a week or so. (the 5 day antibiotics rule by the way) Ive continued my cough syrup, same stuff just without the codeine, but now my cough is getting worse. I wake up in the middle of the night hacking phlegm up, and my chest will hurt so bad that it hurts to just move.

I worked this morning, and it felt like I had rubber bands stuck in my throat. Last month, it felt like needles and glass. The rubber band feeling is awful. It's gone down into chest, and every time I have a productive cough, I get so lightheaded that I have to sit or lean on something.

And.... I'm not eating. :( I've eaten next to nothing the past few days. That's probably explained why I feel light headed when I cough, but every time I eat, I feel as if I'm going to throw it back up -- which I've done several times this past week.

Yesterday I developed a bad headache, that wont go away. Im starting to wonder if its a sinus headache, even though I dont feel any sinus pressure.

All this crap makes it hard to do school work, like hardcore.

But I'm still trying.

I've been sitting lazily around the house all day. It's really gloomy outside. I don't feel like doing anything or making anything to eat. I surf campusfood.com for awhile until I decide I just need a Papa Johns perfect pan pizza. They had a 3 topping special for that crust, and I get whole pepperoni, 1/2 green peppers and black olives, since John doesn't care for my peppers or olives. The doorbell rings 50 minutes later, and it's the Papa Johns delivery guy. Yay! It's pizza time. I open up my pizza and start looking for my side of the pizza. I don't see any green peppers or black olives. My pepperonis aren't pepperonis, they're tomatoes. And there is onions and chicken. So I look at the box to make sure it was delivered to the right person. The box was correct, but the pizza wasn't. By now, this pizza is lookin' good. I like tomatoes and onions and we all know that I LOVE chicken. So I call Papa Johns and tell them what happened. They said they can send me a new pizza, but I told them that I was fine with the one I got. (The toppings I got were more expensive because of the chicken, if I remember correctly.) They laugh at the situation and thank me for my call. I just didn't want whoever got my pizza to flip out about it. I'm kinda missin my olives and peppers though. :-\ And, I don't know if John will even touch this pizza.

I kinda feel like I at least should have gotten a special coupon off my next order or something for their mixup though, but I'm not one to complain and make a scene.

Damn me for working customer service.

Dad loves my car so much, he went out and bought the same one for him.. Same year, same model, just different color.


I did one of the hardest things imaginable yesterday; give up my ferrets. I didn't want them to go to the humane society. One of my friends took his there before I got mine, and said they were eating cheap cat food and their fur was getting dry. I knew someone who was in love with my boys as much as me, and decided that he'd be the best place for them to stay with.

I cried so much yesterday. Especially after Connor kept hanging out on my shoulders and playing with my hair -- something he hadn't done since he was a kit. When I was crying, he'd lick the tears from my eyelids and cheeks -- something he only did when I cried, and it always made me feel better. This time though, it made it even harder because I didn't want to leave them behind.

While I was packing up their stuff yesterday, Fez was just kinda like "wtf?" and Connor was by my side the whole time like he knew what was happening... Or maybe he thought we were going to South Dakota again so he could play with his ferret friends he made out there.

I really trust that they're in good hands with Joel. It just sucks that they're now 3 hours away and I cant just drive 5 minutes to go play with them whenever I want, which I think was the hardest part about letting them go. But at least I KNOW where they are. That and they have a whole house to run around in now instead of just my bedroom and Dad's.

I just really hope that Joel will change his mind about me visiting the boys. I already miss them so much. Just being around them really cheers me up when I'm down. That, and Joel looked kinda sad when he saw me holding the ferrets and just broke out in tears -- it gave me the feeling like he still has a heart.

Anyway, I'm off before I start crying uncontrollably again... I've never had to give up a pet. It's hard. Almost as hard as putting one down, but at least you know they're ok.

One more quiz and a 50 ? multiple choice final and I will have completed my first semester in 2 years. With 2 classes! W00t! I have to remember the summer classes are a lot of work though but it's def the way to go. Now if only I could afford to pay fall tuition. I could have, but thanks to a drunk driver, I have to post-pone school for awhile.

One July 1st about 3pm (remember, the 1st was on a SUNDAY), a drunk driver TOTALED my PARKED camry. Continued on to total the camry parked in front of me (*starts to wonder if he had a thing against camrys*). I heard he hit another parked car in the subdivision and a bunch of mailboxes. So around 4:30, I'm heading out to my car to go to work, and I see cops surrounding my car. I see the car in front of it, see that it's all smashed up. All I can see from my car from the distance and the cops blocking my car is that my mirror was knocked off. I call Dad up in tears because I was in love with my '91 camry. (sure it was getting old and rusty but it was my first car that i held on to for 5 years to the month!) It was starting to suck going without a car of my own. Dad let me borrow his Acura until we found a new car. I wasn't expecting to get a new car until Dad came back from vacation so I was just like "whatever. I have a car for 3 weeks" (Sasha's taking her drivers test on Friday and the Acura is going to her until she buys her car)

On the 4th, I stop by Dad's with my friend Travis before going hiking at Allerton. Dad's home and he tells me that he's found some cars that I might like. A 2000 Saab 93 and a 1995 BMW 318ti. After Dad toyed around with both cars for a few hours, he told me I should get the beemer. I rolled my eyes. I hadn't even seen the inside of the beemer yet and I was about to put myself into debt for the next year and half over a car I haven't even seen yet? It's bad enough I let Dad talk me into buying it without me actually driving it first. But whatever.

Luckily the drunk driver had some good insurance and gave Dad more than what he paid for the car 5 years ago. Dad let me have $1000 of it for the down payment on my car and the rest will be me making weekly payments on it. So I've been cruising around town in a '95 318 :) I love it except for the fact that its a 2 door, but oh well. And it's a NICE UPGRADE from my camry. (which, I'm actually getting tired of people badmouthing that car.)

Well now that I have a car, John's car is currently not going anywhere until my Dad comes back from vacation and he can take a look at it. So I've been running my sister and my boyfriend to work all week, really adding up the miles to my car. *hiss* Oh well, it's a fun car to drive.

I'm in love, and I love it. :)

I was running the front end this evening, and we were a bit busy so I was helping out by bagging. I had this guy, who was probably in his 60s come through the register I was bagging at and requested double plastic bags. I had no problem with it, smiled and said "sure." Then he gets closer to me starts grinning and continues, "That's what I do to my girlfriends when I'm done with them."

Luckily he didnt have a huge order and he was outta there within a minute or two. After baggin his order, I had to walk away and go hide in the service desk because I didn't know if I was more creeped out than scared or not.

In all honestly, I think this past Christmas has been the best one yet. I didn't get any gifts that I had to fake like and let collect dust in my room until I get the nerve to throw it away. I got two awesome gifts, and one more coming from Tristan when he comes into town. But I didn't get my gifts on Christmas so I'll hold off on those. But the reason that I loved Christmas so much this year is that I caught a nasty cold/flu whatever the hell people around here have been catching. Sucky, yes but I got to stay in bed ALL day and Dad brought me some left over noodles, stuffing and turkey so I could have my Christmas dinner in bed while watching movies I needed to watch so I could send them back to netflix. I dont think I had ever been so sick yet content at the same time before. It was sort of an awesome feeling except for the whole having problems breathing part.

The two gifts I got were awesome. Joel took me to go see Disturbed, Stone Sour, Flyleaf, and Nonpoint on the 18th. It was an awesome concert and hanging out with Joel and Charley after the concert was great, except that Joel and I had gotten into an argument that morning, and he was still ticked at me. We went to Steak-n-Shake after the concert only to get the shittiest service ever and to pay them back, we gave her a 9 cent tip, and I (accidentally) stole the spoon from my milkshake. Then the three of us played Guitar Hero 2, drank, and threw ping pong balls at each other until about 4AM. Hanging out with those guys is always so much fun, it just sucks that they live 2.5 hours away.

The other gift was a book of dream symbols from Curt. I'm not exactly sure how he knew I wanted that book. It was like he tapped into my mind or something. My sister's even been reading some of it. I was going through it yesterday and realized that this book has about everything in it... Up to beastiality and incest. I couldn't help but laugh at the chapter/section on disturbing sex dreams. I texted Curt and thanked him for the book after reading that part.

Everyone seemed to enjoy gifts that I got them this year. The only one that came back to me was a shirt I got for Sasha.. Apparently this shirt didn't fit her right. She was running around in the Ohio State hoodie I got her. She wanted a college team hoodie... So I got her Ohio State.. Dad wasn't too thrilled with it until I asked him if he'd rather have her wearing Wisconsin, Michigan or Perdue... But yea, I didnt give out too much this year, but this is what went out....

Curt got a coffee grinder and some whole bean coffee (I bitched at him once for grinding coffee at the store)

Dad got another Paint the Hall Orange picture and a book on scenic routes in america (which when he read the title, he looked at Sasha and added "to be seen on a motorcycle")

Sasha got 2 shirts and a dvd player.

Joel got this sign from the movie Cars featuring Mater.. Joel and I watched that movie together when he was visiting and we both loved it.. When I saw it, I knew I had to get it for him. Apparently it was the first decoration he took to his house that he just bought so I felt special.

Laurie got a birthday/xmas gift on Friday, on her birthday.. I got her a bottle of rum with sliced mangos in it. She seems to love it on rocks.

Alright, I think it's time to attempt to fall asleep now because I'm bored out of my mind since I slept all day. Argh.

Yesterday had tons of ups and downs and its a good thing I was able to laugh about it.

First... I tried installing a new hard drive on my computer since the one I had was shitty and was starting to let go. I couldnt even get my computer to read the disk.. Luckily Dad got it to read, but wasnt able to get it to install OS X. He finally gave up and told me to play around with it. After another hour of playing with it, I gave up and decided to try putting the old hard drive back in. Well, I was lazy and hooked it up as the secondary one, wondering if it would boot up OS X from that drive so I could get back on my computer. No. It wants to install OS X again.. So I tried it one more time, and wala... It lets me install on the new hard drive.. I told Dad what I did, and he's like "that makes no sense." I told everyone how I did it and they all said the same thing.

Alls fine and dandy until I have to put in disc two of the OS.... I cant find it.. I spent two hours looking for this damn disc last night... I found it and couldn't be happier. But when I get logged in.... I cant connect to my internet.. My wireless drivers didnt install properly and I couldnt figure out what was wrong. Dad reinstalled them and then I'm online.. It's like sheesh.

So after all that, I decide to go take a shower and go grab some steak n shake because it was 11pm, and i hadnt eaten yet. So I go take my shower, and afterwords, I'm back in my room getting dressed and chatting with a few friends. Next thing I know I have someone yelling at me through my window. Scared the living shit outta me. It was Grant and Derek, upset that I wasnt responding to their IMs because I was in the shower, and they tried calling, but my phone was dead. After I realized who it was, I was cracking up and went to go answer the door in my jeans and a towel. I ended up telling Derek that it was something you'd expect to happen in a movie, not in real life. He laughed at me :-\

I'm so glad to have my camry back. I've been driving Dad's tundra for the past 2 weeks. I put a total of $40 in gas into that thing. $20 the two times I put gas in. Filled it up qtr or a tank -- and of course I realize Dad's gas tank is MUCH bigger than mine. But the fact that that qtr of a tank would last me a week to get to work and back 5 times SUCKED ASS.

I got my camry back this weekend, but I was gone all weekend so today was the first day I really got to drive it around. I was on qtr of tank so I decided to go ahead and fill up because I was already on the side of town that is 5 cents cheaper per gallon. $15 bucks gave me a little more than half a tank.... And that will last me a good 2.5-3 weeks. That's including driving to see friends and random trips to taco bell in the middle of the night.

*hugs my car* I missed it so much.

My birthday was full of puking before I even left, but was tons of fun!

I'm going to do a "this day in history" thing....
There's a shitload of stuff that's happened on Nov 3 so I'll just post what I find interesting...


History
1493 - Christopher Columbus first sights the island of Dominica in the Caribbean Sea.
1839 - The first Opium War between China and Britain broke out.
1848 - A greatly revised constitution, drafted by Johan Rudolf Thorbecke, severely limiting the powers of the Dutch monarchy, and strengthening the powers of the parliament and the ministers, is proclaimed. This constitution is still in effect today.
1911 - Chevrolet officially enters the automobile market in competition with the Ford Model T.
1954 - The first in the Godzilla series of films is released in Japan.
1969 - Vietnam War: U.S. President Richard M. Nixon addresses the nation on television and radio, asking the "silent majority" to join him in solidarity on the Vietnam War effort and to support his policies.
1979 - Greensboro massacre: Five members of the Communist Workers Party are shot dead and seven are wounded by a group of Klansmen and neo-Nazis during a "Death to the Klan" rally.
1984 - Indira Gandhi was cremated at Shakti Sthal.
1992 - U.S. presidential election: Democratic challenger Bill Clinton defeats incumbent Republican George H.W. Bush and independent candidate Ross Perot.
1992 - Illinois Democrat Carol Moseley-Braun became the first black woman elected to the U.S. Senate.
1994 - Susan Smith of Union, S.C., was arrested for drowning her two young sons, nine days after claiming the children had been abducted by a black man.
1998 - Former professional wrestler Jesse Ventura is elected Governor of the U.S. state of Minnesota.
1999 - Aaron McKinney was convicted of murder in the beating of gay Wyoming college student Matthew Shepard.
2006 - Apple releases the 2nd generation of the iPod Shuffle.

Birthdays
1952 - Roseanne, American actress and comedienne
1953 - Dennis Miller, American comedian
1968 - Debbie Rochon, American actress
1973 - Mick Thompson, American guitarist (Slipknot)

Deaths
1957 - Wilhelm Reich, Austrian psychotherapist (b. 1897)
1998 - Bob Kane, comic artist & Batman co creator (b. 1915)

I called Tristan earlier this evening. First thing he said to me was "Why are you so super smiley?" I asked him what he was talking about and he said that he could hear it in my voice that I was genuinely happy.

I guess I'm just that way when I'm around Derek.

So someone apparently called Tristan this evening. They blocked their number from showing up on the caller ID, disguised their voice and said "Serena's mine." and hung up.

I wonder who that was.

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
crzmnky goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Pirate.
avbn5000 gives you 6 red-orange pineapple-flavoured wafers.
bethyboo gives you 18 light yellow cherry-flavoured wafers.
cherry_mocha tricks you! You get a dead frog.
chronos tricks you! You get a broken balloon.
crossinverted tricks you! You lose 9 pieces of candy!
deadendkid gives you 2 softly glowing vanilla-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
eatyrwheaties gives you 7 light green banana-flavoured jawbreakers.
edificeoptimus tricks you! You get a rotten egg.
ember513 gives you 5 mauve apple-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
jackpumpkin gives you 9 purple watermelon-flavoured gumdrops.
crzmnky ends up with 38 pieces of candy, a dead frog, a broken balloon, and a rotten egg.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

My baby, Sadie, is being put down at 9AM.

...Tonight is my last night with my doggie... I can't stop crying :'( I've been selfish long enough and I can't fight Dad any longer about putting the poor thing out of her misery.

I'll miss her dearly. She's being cremated, but Dad doesn't want the ashes.. Its so hard on him to do this, that he's keeping her collar and dropping her off at the vet.

She always sleeps with me... And I know I'm going to be woken up when Dad gets her out of my room to take her in. I can't handle it...

Not yet...

I met the most wonderful guy imaginable, and we click.
And now Im wondering what the fuck is going on.
I'm really confused, but Nick and Derek have totally been there for me since I realized what was going on.
I think it's just time to go to bed, and hopefully everything will be straightened out tomorrow.

my car apparently only has about 2 months left on it. he's done fixing it up.

i told him i'd pay for the timing belt, but he says its not even worth it. i think it would be if it would at least get me through the winter.

I saw BeerFest this past Wednesday. It was hilarious and it put me in an awesome mood.

Only to walk out to my car to find that someone HIT MY PARKED CAR!!

Ugh. Seriously. I know my car is a piece of shit but that doesn't mean you can hit it and fucking leave you asshole. Step up and be a man! Thanks to you, my car now has matching dimples. >:o